The allergy season has left me beaten but not broken this year. Like having to wear glasses after 40-odd years of great vision, allergies are tough to figure out. Just taking a walk can set me back days. Can I trade this old body in for a new one?
Speaking of taking a walk, I know I should get out of the house more. Other than swimming right behind my house, I don't get outside much these days. When I do, I rush back as fast as I can. If you have ever snorkeled, you know it is bunches of fun. So pretty and exciting. But no matter how good your equipment is, or how beautiful the ocean life, you can only stay under for so long. You are holding your breath. That's what it feels like to me. Holding my breath till I get back.
I don't want to give the impression that I don't like going places. I do. The farther away the better. Europe, the South, Hawaii, Disneyland. All are wonderful and I love to plan a trip. I look forward to going away and doing fun things.
But day to day? I go to the store, and rush back. Go to the library and come right home. Actually I go days without leaving at all. My world is small and safe. It feels right to be that way, but it probably isn't normal at all.
Isn't recognizing a problem the first step? So I am writing this down and putting a place holder here. I don't know what the next step is. Praying for inspiration.
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